Guess what? As crazy, painful and downright hellish as this journey of mine was, I MADE IT THROUGH! Maybe not to a blissed out, perfect balance point, but to creating a life of support, love and beauty. Here is my journey as written 5 years ago this fall – for everyone who needs to know there IS a way through!
“Have you ever asked for a change in one area of your life and discovered waves of change sweeping through your entire life in order to bring about that “one” thing?
Earlier in the year, I had some marvelous radio interviews with Martha Beck and Meadow DeVor. I followed up by taking a teleclass with Meadow on using the Law of Attraction to create abundance in my life. When I had some difficulty really FEELING what prosperity would be like for me, she suggested I “just” focus on the feeling of success.
O.K., that part was easy.
Success to me =
Freedom, Energy, Confidence and Joy!
These are the feelings I want to live my life from, so these are the feelings I began tapping into every day.
Want to know what happened? I’m sitting here wondering if it’s REALLY necessary for the long-standing basic infrastructure of my life to be COMPLETELY re- arranged just because I asked for freedom, energy, confidence and JOY, dam***! I thought I was *just* asking for abundance in the form of financial prosperity, but by focusing on the feelings I want to live from, I seem to be creating tidal waves of change. Everything that is not in alignment with these wonderful feelings is now in transition.
I feel like I’m straddling two worlds, about to birth a new life. It rather reminds me of when I was about to give birth to my second child. I was desperate for a surrogate to magically take my place. In the end, THAT birth turned out to be really easy….birthing a new life? Not so sure how long the contractions will last…
One thing’s for sure, I am committed to living a congruent life that is healthy for me at all levels. Even knowing what I know today, I would ask to bring in feelings of success and JOY all over again.
I promise to keep you posted on my metamorphosis as we go along. And if YOU can relate to what I’m talking about, I would love to hear from you!”